It’s been way too long since I wrote last. Almost 2 months? And through, what is the most challenging time of my life. The always-dreadful spring. I did a good job of keeping really busy, and getting myself through it. Through the anniversary of Jen’s passing. Through my birthday a few long days later. And, the days, weeks that followed.
I guess if I haven’t had much to say in my blog the last couple of months, can only mean that things have been good? Typically I only end up writing when I am feeling… hmm, ho-hum, or feeling like I need let a few things walk from the jar of feelings and emotions that I thrive on hiding.
I’d really like to start writing more, way more. It’s a lot better for me than playing in the Skully Ferda League online with the fellas. Haha. I keep telling myself that I’d like to write something every day, even if just a small piece, or a few creative sentences. I just feel so much better when I am writing. It’s like working out. When I do it, I feel terrific after. Always. But, getting me to do it is a whole different story! … Same thing. But, if you want to challenge me at NHL 13. Name the place. time. teams. I’m there.
… I could probably use my free time a little better.
It’s almost the end of June? Wow. I think that’s when I started this blog, was towards end of June, beginning of July of last year. Or, maybe end of July beginning of August. Either way, we are nearing a full year of this blog. It’s been great for me. Seriously. The support I have received from my writings have been overwhelming, and absolutely tremendous. My favorite part of writing, aside from the self therapy it provides, is the next day seeing people that have checked out my posts from all over the place, and the comments that you have all left with me. I can assure you, I have them all saved, and/or have them all as a screenshot in my iPhotos, and I go back to them when I need motivation, or a pick me up. Thanks. Maybe it’s only a few sentences, but it means so much. You have no idea. I read the comments, and see the views and I spend the entire day giddying like a 5 year old who just scored his first goal. Typically I’m not one to sport a smile, But to have those days where you just can’t stop smiling, and your face in turn eventually becomes sore… Those are the days after I write in this blog, and read all of the support. Makes me want to do this forever.
Much of this blog, if not all has been related to myself, my ongoing battle with depression, and remembering the life of my sister. It’s all tough to write, and thus the very-very periodic updates, and I imagine it’s tough to read too. I never re-read my posts. I go through them once after writing them initially before I post just to clear up some grammatical errors. But… It’s pretty useless. Usually I am so emotionally high or low after writing them, that I can hardly focus anyways. And, secondly… I ain’t to sure of my grammar being worth a shit; so it dont matter anyway. (… Breathe Mom, I did that on purpose). But, nonetheless. I have never re-read any of my posts outside of the initial editing read 5 minutes prior to posting. So, I am very glad you read! 🙂 … One day, I think I will read them. I think what I would like to do, is clean up each entry grammatically, print them all and put them together in the form of a book. For myself, for my family, and hell, whoever else!
I think that will be my self-reward for doing this blog for a full year, and pulling myself from my own little hell. I’m excited to do that, actually. Maybe I’ll start this week.
One day I’ll read them all. For now, I am scared to relive what I have already lived & wrote. I think that’s why I don’t go back. We’ll find out.
NOW HIRING: Someone to fix the grammar in 23(ish) lengthy blog posts!
Maybe in the future too, I will begin writing about other things. There are so many things I’d like to write about, good things, positive things. Well, in comparison I guess. Things that my readers can read without bawling their eyes out… Which, I hope isn’t the sake for everyone. Really. I hope I have shared a few laughs with you throughout the last little while.
But, there are so many more things I’d like to write about. Again, if you know my weak grammatical abilities, you know that I also am extremely & at times painfully opinionated and am getting more and more strong headed. Haven’t decided if this is good or not. But, I am pretty sure it will limit many new potential friendships, and relationships. Which is fine. I am quite content with those I have. But, I’d love to start writing about other things…
- There is hockey, minor hockey, and the massive changes coming there.
- There are starbucks baristas.
- There is kids. There is parents. There is bubble-wrap.
- Boy, is there bubble-wrap.
But, this is all for another day. Another day soon.
Thank you again so much for all of your support, and reading.
Thank you to those who have messaged me, called me, text me and or kicked me in the ass asking for when the next entry is coming.
Thank you to those who have subscribed and or followed goneawayboys!
Thank you to those who have shared, retweeted goneawayboys!
And, thank you to those who have in any way contacted me about my blog and passed along messages whether it’s to me directly, or through mutual friends.
Some of the nicest things I have ever read are from people I have never met.
Most of all, thank you to everyone who has ever been apart of this, even in the smallest of ways…
You have helped put me back on my two feet.
Blair
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